October 1st…I love the sound of that! It’s been a beautiful first month of fall here in Calgary, but as we say “sayonara” to September and “Oh hi there, October,” I can’t help but be even more excited about this new month. October is my favorite month in the year, for some obvious reasons:
- The “feel” of fall really sets in. While September can still be warm and bright, I welcome some darker days, cooler mornings, and crisper air that October seems to bring. [Mind you, living in Calgary, October usually means SNOW. And while I’m not as excited about that, I still can’t help but love this month!]
- Pumpkins & candy corn! …this one’s a give-in. Pumpkins are such a neat seasonal vegetable to eat in different ways, make neat decorations, and are so fun to carve. Candy corn? Well, it’s a “love it or hate it” kind of candy, and I’m of the LOVE persuasion!
- Mom’s birthday month! …just makes me happy to celebrate her, even from afar!
- Halloween! My very favorite holiday on the North American calendar. Kids being kids, running around at night dressed up and getting free candy – how perfect is it?! This just screams childhood to me and I have SO many great memories around this holiday from growing up.
The year I was a “newsie.” My BFF Anna (far R) came to visit Mikey & I for my favorite holiday of the year, plus more girls dressed up, ready to dig into a log cake. Note the candy corn by Anna.
Last month was a hard one. Truth be told, when I look at my life there is really nothing to complain about, but I’ve felt down, sensed a loss of direction, and been discouraged about my lack of work and not contributing to our family. These feelings haven’t been easy to shake, but it’s also been a beautiful month of starting up our small group (you might know the event as “Fat Tuesday”) each week, some fabulous runs (and even one week of 56 miles that I didn’t blog about), the change of the leaves, and some great hikes under beautiful larch trees.
It’s been a slow transition from the craziness that was our traveling summer, and coming off of that has been abrupt and difficult. My time spent with God in prayer and in reading the Bible has been less routine, and I know that’s a major contributor to feeling paralyzed and unsure about moving forward and putting some plans into action. So while it was a good month, I’m also really looking forward to this next month.
How I was feeling about life before a recent mainly-trail 8.67 miler:
How I felt after about life after the run:
…running helps [me]!
I recently read on Aron’s site a post about facing [her] fears. It really got me thinking about some of my fears and further reflection has brought some interesting thoughts to mind. I think one of my fears is losing some of the amazing work and travel opportunities Mikey and I have had in favor of a more consistent work schedule. I have been so blessed to be able to attend so many retreats, conferences, and outdoor trips with survivors, leading or co-facilitating many of these with Mikey, but “work” to me means being under some else’s thumb and schedule; I’ve had to consider letting some of those opportunities go.
Mikey speaking at one of his 3 presentations in 2 days! A baby cupcake & baby glass of wine provided for the nurses – they know how to get staff out to a presentation on a week night after work hours!
With opportunities brought from our film, I’ve been able to travel many places and have had some incredible experiences, but perhaps it’s time for me to stop basing my life around those opportunities and instead get into some sort of work routine. It might seem “complain-y” of me, and I’ve vacillated between me working for myself as a trainer as a selfish decision so I can still attend events like this or as simply making some life decisions, knowing my priorities and acting them out. That’s one “fear” I’m still trying to figure out but am feeling more and more ready (especially with our need for money and my need to be productive) for this change.
A sunrise on the way to train a client Friday morning – love training, love the early mornings!
A fitness-related fear I didn’t realize I had is committing to a long(er) race distance, training, and running that race. It’s crazy in my mind, because yesterday I ran 13.67 miles “just because” (I set out to run 18 but a black bear at the reservoir changed that plan! Had to turn around and cut my run short!) and it felt like no big deal, but when it comes to thinking of running an actual marathon I seem to back out. I think I’m fearful I wouldn’t be able to run the pace and overall time I want and would be disappointed with the end result. I also really want to run an ultra marathon and recently read a blog of someone who’s training to run a 50 mile race who ran 58 miles in training the other week. I just 56 two weeks ago! Maybe I should start believing I can do it, not worry about my pace but focus on the experience, and put all these miles to use! …just some running ponderings for you.
13.67 miles on a warm fall afternoon in 2:07…thwarted by the bear’s appearance!
If you are facing some fears, being paralyzed from action by any type of anxiety, or just need some encouragement, I urge you to listen to this sermon by Tim Keller: “Praying our Fears.” It’s so good I listened to it 3 times on my run yesterday (well, okay – that’s because our iPod is broken and you can’t change it to anything else!)…it was a good one to let sink in. There is sacrifice, action and “manning up” required when facing your fears, but God will never abandon or leave us. He is the kind of God who urges us to move INTO those fears, sometimes into the face of danger, but he offers his protection – it just doesn’t work when you’re backing up. So here’s to moving forward in his grace!
This morning, as some light rain was falling outside, I laid in bed with Mikey talking about life and planning breakfast in my head (you know it!). We started the day reading some thoughtful words by Chuck Swindoll on how God is in control as evidenced in the life of Esther in the Bible (thanks for that email, mom!) and then ate some pancakes with fresh local peaches on top. So far, October’s off to a great start. And a special THANKS to my incredible husband who continues to support, love, and encourage me – and make me laugh! I love you so much, Mikey.
Do you have a favorite month of the year?
What are you looking forward to in October? Candy corn – yay or nay?
Are you facing any fears right now or need some encouragement in life?
Have a great weekend, everyone! We’re off to the farmer’s market for a coffee (and some cheap, on-their-way-out peaches!) and are viewing today as a work day…let’s make it a good one! Live well & be well,