Alright you guys. I need to be totally transparent with you as my readers and friends. You guys know I eat everything – in moderation, but still, just about everything – and occasionally commit to different challenges to try them out and report back to you. There’s always that thought in the back of my mind that I should also do this or that to clean up my eating habits, improve my pull up strength, see changes in my abs. Of course there’s some vanity attached. But what about pride? Hmmm…
You see, I recently committed to try Beach Body’s 32 Day Fix.* I received the info and just got going last week…but it was rather half-hearted. I didn’t measure everything out and gave in to thinking such as, “Just onnnne more scoop of almond butter” despite being done my fats for the day and proceeded to have 2 or 3 scoops. Why not? I can do what I want.
In line with that thinking, I wanted a treat last weekend so while at Safeway buying a whackload of healthy items, I hunted down a small package of WineGums and ate them in the car, thinking I was above challenges and it didn’t matter because I was consciously making this choice.
Oh, and the workouts that came with the challenge? I immediately asked if they were necessary or not because “I workout ~5 days a week and do my own challenging workouts.” I may not be perfect in the kitchen but I work hard in the gym! The answer I received from my BeachBody coach? “It’s not necessary, but the results are better following the workout plan.” It took me several days before I popped a CD in and gave a workout a shot.
Well. Let me tell you something. I’ve been humbled. Because here’s the thing. I’m a personal trainer and “know” all this stuff – I understand portions, how much I need to eat to lose weight or maintain it, know about the adverse affects of sugar and understand how to train my body effectively. But so often I bulk at the idea of committing to something, despite me encouraging my clients to do so. I tried the workouts this weekend while the snow fell outside and guess what? After only 30 minutes and some 10 and 15 lbs dumbbells, I was SORE the next day! It was hard during the workout and I could feel my abs the following day. Wow.
I had a great chat with my mom last night and our conversation sparked this post. Why is it hard for me to commit to things, despite being the first to put my hand up and participate given the opportunity? I like to think I’m stronger than a program, that I don’t need it to control my eating habits (which aren’t out of the world crazy, and I’m not looking to lose weight, but I am definitely controlled by what I want more than what I need). But the truth is, I do! I need some accountability.
My mom is currently 4 weeks free of her past sugar habit. Despite being incredibly fit, she told me she would buy frozen yogurt daily, took too many handfuls of licorice and was thinking about candy on a regular basis. After committing to the Whole 30 plan (paleo focused) and getting through her own moments of “This is stupid. Life’s too short not to have sugar!” she has now BROKEN her cravings and has only eaten real food – just what she has advised her clients to do – for 4 weeks. No slip ups.
I am so proud of her! And I want to be free of those same cravings, of the idea that I don’t need to stick to a plan, that I’m better than it. Here’s the thing. Will 21 days of portioning out my foods be the hardest thing I’ve ever done? No! But will it be tough for me? Yes.
I can either choose to focus on it and let it become a “stupid” or “tough” commitment, or I can buck up, commit to it and follow through. Why not get some of these issues under control? Why not change up my workouts to include some new-to-me moves (including yoga, which I’ve blogged about wanting more of in my life!)? Why not see some good results to take me from being “pretty healthy” to understanding my portions more, feeling more in control of my eating habits and seeing they physical and mental change?
My mom did it – and although her physical appearance hasn’t changed drastically (although I’ve seen photos; she looks tighter and leaner to me!), she feels better, has totally changed her habits and doesn’t know why she’d go back to being controlled by sugar.
On the 21 Day Fix you can eat pretty much anything (of course no processed foods, but you can have gluten and dairy unlike other eating plans). It’s not a diet, it’s about learning to control portion sizes. Why would I say know to a tool that could help me in that area? I know it will encourage me to eat and prepare foods more intuitively, and I can get behind that!
I just thought I’d share my thoughts with you guys because I’m starting over, only a few days of half-assing it in, and am ready to commit and truly be all-in. Will you hold me to it? Not for changes in my body but rather for changes to my discipline and habits. Here’s to sticking wit it! …because what do I have to lose?!
Are there things in your life in which you’ve been talking the talk but not walking the walk? Are there areas you need to go all-in? Maybe you need accountability too. It could be health-related, like managing your food or finally committing to a daily walk or time in the gym. Maybe it has to do with unplugging from social media for your health on multiple levels, or a different commitment regarding your relationships. Regardless of what it is, I’m not advocating anything extreme, but I think it’s time I personally stop making excuses for myself and start to live what I encourage others to do. It’s time to put aside my pride and not be duped into thinking that allowing so much sugar and my “it’s all good!” mentality is lax and appropriate – it’s more “extreme” than committing to a healthier lifestyle! I’m changing up definitions and borders in my life not necessarily to change my body but to change my habits and stay committed. Will you join me in whatever that is for you? Share in the comments – I’d love to help keep you accountable too!
Live well & be well,
*Full disclosure: Not an affiliate link, although I did receive the program at a discounted rate for my feedback – and honest trial of! – the program. I just wanted to share my journey!